My mentor, confidant,
and best friend for my entire life had been my sister Dorothy. Before she died in 2009, Dorothy gave me a small gold charm in the likeness of an angel.
I
hung it from a gold chain around my neck and never took it off. When my doctor
ordered a chest x ray, my arthritic fingers couldn’t unhook the clasp. The
technician undid it for me. After I got home I put a magnetic clasp on the
chain making it easy to take on and off.
On
Saturday March 18, as I undressed for bed, I realized the charm and chain no
longer sat on my chest. I thought perhaps it became unhooked as I pulled my
shirt over my head. I searched my bedroom and didn’t find it. Then I searched
the house, the car and the garage. No luck. It had vanished.
I
sat down and went over the day’s events in my mind. I remembered that when I
walked my dog, I scratched my neck and caught my finger nail in the chain.
Maybe that’s when it became loose and fell to the ground. I thought about going
out to look for it with a flashlight but vetoed that idea and set my alarm for early Sunday morning.
The
next day I retraced my steps and said a prayer asking the Divine Spirit, if I
am to find it, to please guide my way. I also implored my sister’s spirit to
help me. I searched twice on Sunday and twice on Monday, going over the same terrain
with the same negative results. Someone must have found it before me.
I
said another prayer and asked the Divine to bless the person who found it and
may she wear it with joy. I hoped that it brings her as much comfort as it
brought me.
Then I asked for help to release my attachment to it: to let it go
with love. I don’t need a pendant to remind me of my sister. Her spirit lives
in my heart.
On
Tuesday, three days after I lost it and one day after I gave up hope, something
caught my eye as I walked my dog. There it sat on the lush lawn next to the
sidewalk. The charm and chain lay spread across the grass as if a jeweler’s
hand had displayed it on green velvet. I had passed and searched that spot for
days and didn’t find it. How could it suddenly appear? Then I realized that as soon as I released it, I found it. I was blind to it for as long as I desired
it. But relinquishing attachment, enabled me to perceive it.
As
it says in the bible, “and the blind will see.
Thank
you, thank you, thank you.
If I wasn’t a believer before, I am now.